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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I'M BACK!

And feeling like my self again.
Sunday night I was a mess. But this is my recipe for a quick self rejuvination:

Sunday, after work, I had a good long cry followed by a good long chat with my incredibly supportive and caring husband, Nate in which he assured me that I am not a terrible person, mother, wife etc. etc.
I then endulged myself in a good long cuddle session with said awesome husband.

Monday I did some self reflection and discovered that my biggest problem is the feeling of being lost. Lost from what I should be doing in life, as a mother, in my career, etc. etc. I concluded after some soul searching and some recall from all the fabulous lessons I've learned over the many years of going to church that I needed to get myself back in touch with God.
I had a good prayer session with Heavenly father on Tuesday and read some scripture. I opened my Book of Mormon randomly and ended up in 3rd Nephi. I've never really read 3rd Nephi much, usually I start reading at the beginning of the book and get lazy by about 2nd Nephi. (I know, I'm terrible at being spiritual.) But I feel I was inspired to read these verses of 3rd Nephi yesterday for good reason.

"Ask and ye shall recieve, knock and it shall be opened unto you..."

The faithful Nephites asked for immortality. What did I ask for?

I asked for a way to be made that I can stop working on Sunday. I asked to be closer again to Heavenly father.
But mostly I was reminded of how much I am blessed. I am very blessed. Right now I am mostly grateful for healthy, happy, kids. I also am very greatful for such a good husband.

Today, I got back to my workout routine. The Firm. I also read my scriptures again. Its amazing how much the word of God helps. Everything just seems less overwhelming. I can see a clear path to better our situation.
Why do I ever drift?

God is great.
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